I tried to find the true self through meditation. However, on the other hand, I was also resistant to finding the true self. I was afraid to become a version of myself that was different from my current self. When I realized the true self, I came to the realization that I could not escape from it. Like a small stone caught by gravity, I was drawn to the true self and it terrified me. I was scared to take the leap, and abandon my current self. However, in the end I became one with my true self. My previous self had disappeared. And I remembered that I was the true self the whole time.