I once believed that individual life was living by my own will. So I always strived for my own personal happiness. However this changed when I realized my true self. I realized that I was living the life of god by the will of god. So became aware of the fact that I had to seek not the happiness of myself as a human being, but the happiness of myself as a god. And the happiness of god is being truly conscious and aware in every moment. No one can disturb this awakening. I attained eternal happiness as a god.